CONACYT and Free Will

It's official: I have sold my soul to CONACYT and I couldn't be happier. I'm still not sure what have they actually agreed to pay: I asked for the complementary part of my second year and the third one, plus living stipends for both years. Some colleagues mentioned that if CONACYT helps out, it will try to help out with everything since the point that you're accepted, but I doubt it: part of the application also asked for a date in which to start helping. It's ok, though. My first year is covered (thanks Mom and Dad).

Interestingly, this scholarship was not absolutely necessary, but it will help out enormously. I had a talk with my mom last Thursday, and we came to the conclusion that whatever happened had to happen: a path lies in front of me, that I'm building, but sometimes, just sometimes, the path needs to take certain turns. These are hints, really, of where you need to be.

No, I don't believe in destiny, because we were created with free will, and, thus, nothing can decide our mortal future other than us. However, outside that realm, inside the limitations that we are living in, free will is a fabricated thing, but it is aligned with a greater thought: there is purpose for each and one of us. Like when coding a computer program: the realm (the computer) is limited to do certain actions, and there are lines of code that we, the programmers, want the computer to do and, frankly, without caring how it carries them out. Yet, between the lines of code, between commands, the computer program is actually going through a whole array of random successions, specifically because very unpredictable electromagnetic fields required in the baseline of the computer make up the whole base of operation for the computer program. We act very similarly as those computer programs, and you can consider as the programmer whatever you want to consider divine (God, Nature, etc.). We are capable of doing whatever we want inside this bubble that we are living in (called Universe), but there are certain things, subtle things, that I feel are hints of what we are suppose to do here (our lines of code). We aren't aware of these lines of code because they're either too far away or too incomprehensible, the same way a computer program is not aware of its own purpose. This is also coupled with the idea that there are things that we are not able to control: like the decision of a group of judges of who to give a scholarship. This, however, reveals an interesting concept, as all the judges have their own purpose, and their own free will, so the overall purpose of the group of programs (us) is greatly influenced by the interlocking individual purposes of each one. It is rare that the programmer has to actually get in and shift the Universe gears (by means of weather or meteorological effects), and even then it can be argued that all of the things around us which we don't have control over have also a purpose (maybe a simpler or more complex one than ours) which interlocks with the global purpose of the Universe. This makes all of this quite a complex but beautiful structure: I have an overwhelming respect to the author of this code, it is elegant and goes about very efficiently.

Thank you Programmer, for the opportunity. I'll keep on doing what I feel that I do best... I can't wait to see what happens.